You know, I don't think I would have even thought about writting this blog had it not been for my friend calling me at eleven thirty. She and I had a talk, we discussed alot of things.A few things came to mind while we talked and I have a few personalized messages for each person. There are Three specific persons I need to talk to.
I've never held you in contempt, never truly been mad, never truly hated you. I've only worked to make you happy and I know that I can but you don't. I've been told so many things about you, good and bad. sometimes I draw inspirtation from them and sometimes they hurt but I don't believe them. I let them stay as they are, petty rumors, because I won't beilieve it unless I hear it from you. You need time to grow, to learn, I understand that about you and you'll always have time to do so. It's only you holding yourself back, you do so many things and spread yourself so thin, you really have an amazing aptitude for such but I know I'm not the only one that wishes you would just slow down and enjoy what you have while you have it. I don't blame you for anything that has happened, I don't hate you, I don't want to see you exhaust yourself in your prime. If you do read this, please take it easy, you really deserve some time to relax.
You and I talk, we talked a little ways back about relationships. I don't know what's happened between you two but I'm glad you're being friends. Honestly, the same won't happen for me. You two broke up and I had no idea who was at fault and now I still don't. I don't want to know because I shouldn't ever think like that. No one should be at fault for drifting apart. I'm glad you still talk to him, you're beautiful, you're funny, you're smart, and best of all, you're amazing. I feel as though you and I have a connection in such a way that we understand why bad things happen. You and I learned things about each other, granted a few things were... less wanted than others... we still told each other. If it doesn't work out for you then you shouldn't blame yourself. Be happy for what you had but move on because you will find someone better.
This will be my last note. It is to the second most important person in my life.
Listen, you've been amazing all your life. Don't listen to anything anyone says about you because more times than not, they are lies. Love life, live life, stay happy. You don't need anyone else in your life because you compliment yourself just perfectly. Please stay happy and please don't beat yourself up over the past. You have an amazing family that loves you, your brothers may bother you sometimes but they will always love you. You've suffered some pretty harsh blows in the past year, just like me, but we've both overcome. I'd say we're pretty perfectly matched in the hands that we've been dealt, I'm just more thoughtful. When you read this, because I know you will, I want you to know that you are loved. Maybe not by who you want to love you but you are always loved, by family and friends. You will always have others to count on and help you. Don't beat yourself up over the past, keep calm and carry on.
To the three people I addressed, I know it is somewhat generic in each note but there are subtle differences that keep them specialized just for you. Please take the time to think about what I've said because it came from not only my mind but also my heart, these notes, this advice, it's all what I believe. I take myself for granted, I've been told I give great advice to others but when it comes to me, I never listen, I always jump to conclusions. Take everything you have for granted and you'll end up unhappy. Stay young, live free, and be happy because there is always someone out there that loves you.
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