It's Just Me

I'm not easily offended, I'm not regularly an angry person, I don't hate anybody, but I can hold grudges if necessary. One thing that sets me off is when people meddle in my love life, it's a reason that I don't see many people. I've recently found a new friend and we've been together for about two weeks. Within those two weeks I've been given shit about dating my bestfriends ex, I've been given shit about her age, I've had to deal with a boy-whore trying to swoo her (twice), I've had to deal with angry ex-girlfriends, conspiring friends of an ex, and judgemental parents. I've beaten all of those but now I have another obstacle, another boy out to ruin my relationship. This kid hates my friend and he's made it abundantly clear that he will not in any way, shape, or form, look out to protect her. Now suddenly when I'm in the picture I'm a bad guy to him. Just go Fuck yourself, really, I don't need more problems.

Subconscious Thinking

I was browsing one of the popular comic sites where anyone can upload images when I came across a post detailing a man's journey of going through mental experiments to interact with his subconscious, the short hand of this story would go something like, "I was offered a job to test my imagination, I took the job because I needed the money, after a few weeks of being in the plain boring room I started to visualize myself and interact with my imagined manifestation like the doctors had encouraged me to do. I eventually discovered that I was speaking to my subconscious and that he remembered everything correctly, the doctors were impress and encouraged me to continue. I began to lose contact with most of the outside world and one of my friends noticed that. He asked me what my problem was and my manifestation told me to attack him, I did and I beat him pretty badly. Later on I realized my manifested imagination was become more dark and sinister, he would mentally and physically wound me, chipping at my confidence and lying to me. After asking the doctors about the experiment they shrugged me off and kept on. The test afterwards were a little more harsh, I was tied down and forced to interact with my dopleganger, I remember him attacking me with his talons and cutting my arm, I still have a scar from it. Most days I'm stuck with thinking that my manifestation did attack me and leave me with a scar but some days I can make out for myself that I inflicted it. I locked myself in my small apparement, I didn't want these tests to happen anymore. My imagination came forth and told me that he was going to kill everyone I love, my family my friends, some days he even made me watch as he slit my manifested mothers throat. The memories were so real that I could feel the blood, taste it. He told me that my sister would be the first to die, that he would rip out her guts. A few weeks later I got a call from my mother about an incident. My sister had been the most recent victim in a string of murders. The serial killer ripped out the guts of his victims." That is the short hand version, of course after doing a little research, I was able to clarify that this story is not real, if I can find a link I'll try to put it below.

After reading this though I started to think of how amazing it would be to visualize myself and ask literally any question and get a correct answer. Talking to your subconscious, it's very much so possible, but requires months of mental training and preperation. You could find out anything you would ever want to know about yourself or recall some sort of information. It's really a fantastic trick to learn. I read a little more on the subconscious and speaking with it and realized that some things aren't for me to know. Although you can ask yourself about good things like answers to old questions such as "What was that song" or "How many pages are in this certain book" and get a correct answer, it's always a possibilty to ask harmful questions that would bring up surpressed memories. It's black and white with this, you ask a question and get a correct answer, whether you wanted to hear it or not is not up to you. You will be told and you'll have to live with it.

Family Vacation

I'm not that big on my family, in fact, most of the time I watch in awe as families get to go places and have fun together. My brothers and parents don't get along well so there is almost always an argument that will begin. We rarely go on vacations but today was an exception. We all had stayed local during Spring Break rather than going somewhere fun and extravagant so to make up for it, we went on a wildly magical trip. Where? Well, we went to none other than Subway. My parents bought us all dinner. Afterwards we went to Wally World, better known as Wal-mart. We all got some souvenirs from our trip, all I got were some shorts and what I can only describe as an Adult Capri-Sun. It was a fun vacation, sadly it only lasted about an hour and a half.

You Know What's Coming

I was sitting in my class today, completely spaced out while I should have been listening. I started to write down a story on my paper, right over the print, I just wrote it right on top, didn't even care. I was in the zone. I got maybe halfway through my story when class ended and then thought of making this blog. It got me thinking some more though and I've got some great ideas. So to me readers, if you haven't understood what I've been saying, I've already written down half of Part Four, the sequel to Part Three, Part Two, and Part One. If you've not read them, I'd suggest following the links at the bottom of this post. and taking the time to read them. I don't know when I'll finish Part Four or when I'll be relasing it but I'm hoping for sometime during this month.

For a link to Part One, click here
For a link to Part Two, click here
For a link to Part Three, click here

I Don't Know What I Expected.

My friend offered me some of her water infused with Cocoa and Mint. Honestly I had no idea what it was going to taste like. I took a drink and it tasted like minty chocolate. It was really dissorienting. Water should taste like water. My sense are freaking out right now, when I have the taste of mint on my tounge I expect the experience of gum, like a tingly cold feeling, not this. I don't know what to think! It's like mint that ins't minty, water shouldn't taste like this. On the other hand, it was tasty, it was just weird and it threw me off.