"Here" Is Not Worth It

Sometimes, I just want to leave. You can't solve every problem. Sometimes it is better to run. I don't want to stay here, it's hard to deal with all of my stress, all of my problems, all of the hate. I have friends and family, I love them, but it's just not always worth it to be around them. So much stress has been handed to me and I don't like it. I've been having to make hard decisions, I've been having to ask for help, I don't want to do it. Staying here isn't worth the trouble.

Accidentally On Purpose

Have you ever done something to put yourself in an even worse mood then you were already in? I do this all of the time. I'll be mad at one little thing one minute and then completely pissed off at the world the next. I know I do this on purpose, I know that what I'm about to do won't help me in anyway and in fact will just hurt me. Sometimes it's for the best, it wakes me up to what's really happening. I don't think any of us actually do these sort of things on accident, we all know what's going to happen but we do it anyway, maybe to hope that somethings changed, or maybe just to wake ourselves up to the real world. I will tell you all one thing, the real world hurts, just like the truth, but we need it and we can't live without it.