Not Exactly...

I just put up Part Three of my story, go ahead and feel free to read it because it has some important things in it that are forshadowing possible events. (Question Mark?) I will say though that it's more of a filler than a main part of the story. I had this entire thing planned out but as I was adding details such as the dialogue I realized that I wouldn't be able to fit what I wanted to get done all in one post. I had planned to get to the start and finish of the "Activity" that the campers would be doing but as I finished up I went to preview it and found out that it was much longer than I had expected. I decided to finish up and leave the rest for a later blog. Part Four will hopefully be out soon, maybe next month or in the coming weeks, I'm not making any promises though.

Part Three

Voices are filling the dining hall as everyone tells stories of their day. Most of the campers have already sat down with their food and started eating. Kiya and I noticed a couple of our campers grouping up at the end of the table, we both looked at each other with a quizzical look on our face. We got up and walked to the group of campers to see what all the hullabaloo was about. The campers were almost in a huddled formation gossiping about the activity tonight. As we end our small walk to the group Kiya asks, "What's going on guys?" to which the campers quickly snap back into a seated position and almost instinctively answer "Nothing..." Kiya and I already both know what's going on, they all want to know what we're doing tonight but don't want to ask any of the counselors.
I stand up a little straighter and say "Alright then, Kiya and I will be heading back to our cabin soon, if you need anything, don't hesitate to come get us." The campers go back to their usual dialogue, talking about their day and gossiping about tonight. As Kiya and I walk out of the dining hall I hear a voice from behind, two voices actually. Both shouting "Hey wait!"
We keep walking out of the dining hall and stop in front of the closed doors. Only a few moments after, Emily and Bailie came running out. They burst through the doors in a hurry and even started running a few feet ahead before realizing Kiya and I had stopped. As Emily planted her feet into the ground trying to get traction to turn, she nearly tripped and fell over. Kiya, Bailie, and I had a laugh about that until Emily stopped us and said it wasn't funny. After the shenanigans I asked, "So what's up? We heard you yell at us."
"We need to talk to you guys real quick... In private." said Bailie
"Great, Brandon and I were just going back to our cabin, you're both welcome to join us, I doubt anyone would be listening." replied Kiya.
We started walking again, following the dirt paths that have been tread so many times, we made up some small talk, some things about the weather, a few anecdotes about our lives outside of camp, pretty much things we already knew. Each cabin we passed was like a checkpoint on our walk, each time we passed I let out a loud whistle almost as a way of letting the others know we were getting closer. First the DJ cabins, then the EB cabins, JG cabins, and finally we passed the KB cabins.
We enter the cabin two by two and sat ourselves down. "Get comfortable" Emily said, "We have a lot to talk about."
I let out a sarcastic "Ugh" and let the others talk. Bailie speaks first, "Emily and I overheard Danny and Gabby talking about starting an alliance between their two cabins, I don't think it's fair."
"Not fair at all, which is why I suggest we make an alliance between our cabins, it'd be like a two on two grudge match."
Kiya and I exchange looks of intrigue then start to think. I chime in and say "Give us a few moments, we need to talk about it." with a very smug tone of voice. There was a short pause then we got up and left the cabin. Kiya and I sat on the steps of our cabin and started to talk.
"So you think we should do it?" asked Kiya.
"It doesn't really matter if we team up, our campers are going to win anyway. I say we do what you think is best."
"Bailie has been my best friend for a long time... I don't know, it just seems like we're creating an unfair advantage..."
"Well of course it's an unfair advantage, teaming up to win. What if Danny and Gabby's cabins aren't actually teaming up though, we'll look like the bad guys then. Emily has been one of my best friends since we met, it's not like I don't want to partner up."
"Yeah... I don't know what to do-"
A voice from the cabin shouts out, "Are you guys almost done? We're getting tired of waiting in here!" It was from Emily, a way of showing her impatience.
I stand up and say to Kiya, "We'll think about it some more and maybe talk to Danny about it, don't say anything to anyone else, okay?"
"Understood, Cappy Tan." she replies.
We walk back into the cabin and are greeted with the anxious eyes of Bailie and Emily. They stand and almost in unison ask, "Well?" I smile and say, "Give us until tonight, we need to think about it a little more, now, if you'll excuse us, would you kindly get out? Kiya and I have some things to do."
Bailie and Emily slowly exit the cabin and are almost out of the door until Emily stops. "You might want to think about it quick, you know what the losers get..."
"Yeah, yeah, yeah... We know, now get out." I say.
Emily and Bailie finally get out of the door way and reach the dirt pathway. Kiya and I have since made our way to the windows to stand and watch as Emily turns back for a quick glance. We step back and each go to the tiny fridge in the corner. We knelt down, opened the door, and each grabbed a Styrofoam box. I had gone into town the previous night to pick up a special dinner. We opened the boxes, got some plates, gave each other a huge grin, then we dug in.

Recent Thinkin'

If you didn't know, I had started to date this girl back in December. We dated for a month and it was a pretty easy going relationship. We both told eachother that we are the jelous types but honestly, we both believed we'd be faithful. We were, there were no doubts of cheating on the other or thinking about it either. A few weeks ago though, we started talking and we realized we weren't compatable... Or at least I did (Getting on to that...) I broke up with her but I gave her a handshake and reminded her about my promise that I will be her friend if we did end it, apparently that wasn't enough for her, she gave me a hug and a smile then we both went on our way. Now, it was two days after I broke up with her that I found out she was "Dating" someone that I personally dislike, he's never been a good person and he's an all-around douche. The next time I saw her, she told me about it, said they got together a day ago, she was happy with him, blah blah blah. They broke up three days later. She made it a whole five days before the guy deicided he wasn't ready for a relationship. Now she wants to get back with me but there is another girl I've been thinking about. I've known her for a while and we haven't talk for quite some time. It took me breaking up with a girl to get me to start thinking about a time in my life when I was happy. I realized those days were over and skipped forward a few months to the summer of 2012. If you've been sticking with me from the beginning, most of you know that I blogged about this girl that I met. She and I seemed pretty similar and compatable, in fact we even talked about dating. Thing is she moved away and we don't talk anymore. I saw her a few weeks ago hanging around with her family but I was preoccupied. After I had finished putting some things away I went find her but alas, she had already left. It's this girl that I've been thinking about recently, I remember the days we spent together like they were yesterday. I can't get the thoughts out of my mind and I'm sort of glad. They bring me back to the days that I didn't hate this world, before I was spiteful to everyone I met, before I started making bad decisions. It was a good time, I'm happy I met her and I hope to see her again soon.

Future Plans

Okay guys, I'm going to be heading North for Wisconsin soon, I plan on bringing my laptop, phone, and other electronic advices. I'll be taking pictures, I'll be creating stories, maybe I'll work on my "Part Three" (Speaking of which, no progress on it yet.) So anyway, expect more things to come in the following weeks. Also I'm going to the Three Days Grace Concert on the Fifteenth and I am E-X-C-I-T-E-D!

Oh Joy

Oh Bailie, you're such a loveable person, there's no need to be upset. I know how you feel, giving everything, doing nothing wrong, trying to be the best you can for her and then she shoots you down. Trust me, it won't kill you. You have plenty of other friends, like you said, Janis, Charley, Danny, and also me. I'm here to listen, it's what I do best. So Bailie, in the nicest way possible, get over it, because it's not worth being upset about. Let it go, hold a grudge for however long you want, be mad, get angry, but then... Let it go. I've forgiven her, I don't hate her, granted I doubt she thinks of us as friends but I'd be there if she needed me to be. Occupy yourself with other things, work on a halloween costume like me. (Nine months away, you can never be too early.) Maybe if crafts aren't your thing, learn some sort of skill, maybe change up your style, you shouldn't dwell on petty things of the past. Most of all Bailie, just be happy, there's no need to beat yourself up over this. You've got traits that make you great and I believe that you're going places, just let life happen.

Good Tuesday, Bailie
~Bwheels

A Common Trend

So, what I've been noticing is that my dad is bad luck when it comes to concerts. Every time he has bought tickets to go see a live performance, something has happened. Back in 2010, he bought Aerosmith tickets for us all and Stephen Tyler ended up falling off stage in a drunken fit, breaking his ankle in the process and consequently ending the tour. Back in 2009, he bought tickets to see Here Come The Mummies live. The night before he had a heart attack and had to miss the concert (If anyone is wondering, he is fine and healthy now). This year (2013) he bought tickets to see Three Days Grace performing in Fort Wayne. Two weeks later Adam Gontier, the lead singer of the band, left. We're still planning on seeing them so hopefully they don't completely break up. The one concert I have been to though, my sister bought tickets to. So being 3 for 4 is a pretty bad statistic.

New Activity

I've recently opened up a new blog, it's called "The Overlapping Lines" and it's my photo blog. To any of my readers, don't feel like you need to go check it out, It's only a few passages of my thinking prcess on some topics and questions discussed in my photagraphy class.

Those Who've Forgotten

"I ponder of something great, my lungs will fill and then deflate, they fill with fire, exhale desire I know it's dire my time today. I have these thoughts so often I ought to replace that slot with what I once bought 'cause somebody stole my car radio and now I just sit in silence, sometimes quiet is violent. I find it hard to hide it, my pride is no longer inside, it's on my sleeve, my skin will scream reminding me of who I killed, inside my dream, I hate this car that I'm driving, there's no hiding for me I'm forced to deal with what I feel, there is no distraction to mask what is real."

Theses are lyrics to a song I was introduced to. I know some people that can relate to this little snippet of the song though. People think of being amazing, they want to achieve greatness and become something in this world. So many times the world turns them down, they are left with some obstacle that they don't think they can get past and it burns inside them. Trying so hard to be someone and then crushed in an instant. In this case, the radio to me is a dream. Someone has taken it away from me and I think of getting a new dream but it's not that easy, it's never that easy. Without a dream to follow we have no drive to do what we needs to be done, we sit in silence and accept the fate that's befallen us. Time eats away at us, the pain of losing what we desired finally makes us snap, it sends us over the edge and forces us to deal with what we've been hiding. Suddenly all of the pain floods back in and all we can do is try to hide it. When we give up on a dream, we all die a little inside, part of us that was yearning to accomplish something is now gone and will not return. My message to you all is to never give up on a dream, no matter how hard something may be. I know what I want in life, I know my limitations, and I know my qualities. I can dream and aspire to be whoever I want to be and change the life of myself or others. Never let go of your dreams.

Thanks!

Guys, I'm proud to say that at 12:21 AM on January 8, 2013, this blog, Miscellaneous, reached over One-Thousand views! Thank you to everyone that has helped me reach this goal, it's a huge milestone to me and I hope it means a lot to everyone out there as well. Having readers and fans really inspires me to be a better person, to try and share my stores and advice with others. Thank you all so much and especially to the one-thousandth viewer, whoever it may be, here's hoping for another thousand more!

A Story Told Too Many Times

I've had too many people tell me about that one person that they just can't stand, that one person that has done something horrible to them and it will never be forgiven. I've had to tell too many people that forgiving others is hard but it's always the best choice, it's something I learned from a dear friend, one that I rarely speak to now. Don't get me wrong, what someone has done may sting like a thousand wasps but everything will be okay. I've been crushed on the inside multiple times and it hurt more than anything I've ever experienced but because of the words she has spoken to me, I've been able to forgive and forget. Whenever I say to someone that they should forgive I always include that healing takes time and that they can spend as much time as they need in order to begin forgiving. I always have a temporary moment of hatred, anger, and spite before I begin to let go and it could last anywhere between a few hours to a few months. I've hated plenty of people and it wasn't until August of 2011 that I began to understand that spite gets you nowhere. I may not speak to these people or act friendly to them, but I don't go out of my way to spread rumors and talk about them behind thier back. It's just so much easier to let go of things and carry on with life rather than stay hung up on the details of the past and let them ruin your future. I feel like I've made amends with my Ex-psuedo-spouses, (it's what I call a girlfriend/boyfriend rather than the obvious, sounds much more sophisticated, yes?) my first psuedo-spouse and I are still very good friends and we make plans to hang out every once in awhile, my second and I are less friendly to eachother, we don't plan to hang out, and we rarely talk but I never speak ill of her and if she needs help, I'm happy to assist. All of my childhoood enemies and I are on common ground (or at least I hope so...) because of time, I've not spoken to many of them and they've not spoken to me, I don't get dirty looks and I don't send them either. I try hard to be a good person and there may be someone that comes along and hurts me but they will always be forgiven because I've stopped myself from caring about the past. It feels good to vent anger but it feels better to rid yourself of hate.

My New Years Events

So, as I said here's my blo documenting my New Years Eve! It started as any regular Monday, I woke up showered and got myself ready through my morning routine... all at noon ish. Now, my New Years Eve day was not very exciting, the evening is really where it got interesting. Around Six 'O' Clock I drove over to the local Walmart and bought some soda, a two liter of Coke and a two liter of Diet Pepsi, for the party later tonight. around eight 'O' Clock I texted my very good friend, Brandon and made plans to pick up another of my mates. We drove to his house and then straight to the party. All three of us showed up at the same time (Of course we would, we all drove together...) and were completely ready to party hardy, but the girls were not. All of them excluding Amy were upstairs fixing thier making and putting on party clothes. Eventually, maybe fifteen minutes later, the girls came down and we kick strarted the party with some gossip. It was pretty bland but still fun. We talked some more and started playing a movie in the background, I can't remember what it was at this time but it starred Robert Downey Jr. the best actor of his generation. After the movie was over we went to eat some snacks, cookies galore! Tonnes and tonnes of cookies! We eventually got some (slightly) nutritional food, buffalo wings, I myself did not eat any because I'm not a huge fan of eating food in other houses. We had our dinner and then led ourselves to the dance party. It was really just to get my pal to grind with his girlfriend, if you don't know what grinding is, look it up. We got him to break out of his shell and he was grinding like a maniac the rest of the night, but so was Brandon, Anne, and Amy. Emily and I stayed away from the grind train as we both find it... Disturbing. While I was urged on to grind with everyone I stood my ground and refused. Aaron later came over (He and Amy are sort of a non-exsistant "thing") and we had a plan to get him jealous. We all knew he liked Amy and Amy likes him. To make him jealous we were going to have Amy and Brandon grinding while he showed up, that plan turned to ashes when he pulled up thought, rather than going on with the plan we all ran into the kitchen. We turned the channel to the ball drop about fifteen minutes until midnight and kept on talking. Surprisingly none of us counted down when it got to ten seconds 'til midnight... We were all too busy scrambling around. There was a bottle of sparkling grape juice in the refrigerator for us and we had all forgotten until Brandon brought it up fifteen seconds 'til. Emily grabbed the bottle from the kitchen and ripped the cork out right as the ball hit 0, it was officially 2013. Emily started it off with a big swig. We poured the sparkling grape juice and all toasted to a new year then slowly we started to dwindle down. Aaron left first then Brandon, then my pal and I. Anne, Emily, and Amy decided to sleep at Amy's for the night. My night ended with me rewatching the Doctor Who Christmas Special: Snowmen. All in all, fantastic New Years. Happy 2013 to everyone!

Happy New Years!

Hey guys! Keep an eye on this blog, I'm going to be upload a lengthy description of my New Years later in the day/week!